My Porcess

Who I am and what Ive become can only be seen with self honesty, I can try to justifie a thought or feeling or emotion but that is of the mind, To STOP and breathe is key to finding your self honesty, seeing the movements from the inside out. Ive been questioning my existence for to long, Trying to label this life with a mind concept, not understanding that life can not be measured by the mind, that no label can ever settle the battle of the minds, So I found a tool, it a a great tool to use, it hasn't answered any questions for me instead it was left up to me, this tool was desteni, it provided me with the awareness necessary to looking only inside instead out. So what is there to know?-- you are here thats all you will ever really KNOW, other then that good luck trying to KNOW, Cause the only things we have ever known is are self's and that's it

I found desteni cause I was searching for myself, I wanted to KNOW that I was not my thoughts and that I would never really act out on my thoughts, They were nasty sometimes out of the blue, Like were the fuck did that come from? Stuff that made me really question who I was, I didnt want to be a killer or rapist I wanted to be a lover I wanted to help people not destroy them, but my thoughts painted a different picture and this scared the shit outta me, I wasn't going to allow myself to become my thoughts, So here I am expressing in self honesty, in hopes of revealing more to myself about myself,